The making of a baby (no sex involved)

So today we handed over a great deal of money to a clinic in the hope that they will make us a baby!

For a lot of you out there getting pregnant is as simple as it sounds,
 Boy meets girl
 Boy and girl get it on
 Baby is born 9 months later

Who knows if boy and girl are still together, or if they are if they will stay together, but they will always have a bond that will never be broken, a child!

To me a females 1 role in life apart from working, cooking, cleaning, shopping, running your husband's life ( i said running not ruining) is to have a baby, it's an inbuilt yearning that you can suppress for a while then it rears it ugly ticking biological clock like face to punch you in the stomach.

So we are nearly ready to get back onto the roller coaster of IVF for the 4th time with a lot less hope and even less money, to pump myself full of hormones, that make me want to pump my fist into any ones face, to give myself daily injections and many very early morning trips to the clinic to be poked and prodded by many Doctors and nurses (not in a nice way) to not even be guaranteed a positive outcome.

But I have HOPE because if I didn't what is the point of getting out of bed, of making plans, of just living!

Sometimes you have just got to go with the flow and if it doesn't work I'll pick myself up again put my lipstick on (no mascara might still cry) and get on with living my pretty fab life that we have built together.

 So before we start we are off on a last big holiday to Orlando to indulge our inner child before we (hopefully) have to grow up and become parents!

Obsessions

I seem to have developed an unhealthy fascination with Gary Lightbody on twitter (he's the man who sings with snow patrol) I think I've maybe listened to their new album too much and can identify with so many of the lyrics. It might be that as we are from the same hometown and are the same age I just get it, now before you tell him he needs to get a restraining order against me, relax, I'm reasonably level headed (if you exclude PMT) but I may need to unfollow him just so I stop the tweets that scream " look at me, notice me" I think that if he maybe just writes a song about me I'll let it go, oh and maybe a dedication on his new album, oh maybe let's me sing on stage at his next concert (I don't ask for much) i will move on quietly to my next victim! Am I the only girl ( can I still get away with girl at 36?) who is instantly turned off by overtly attractive men? Weird as that question might sound and I feel the need to apologise to Mr Lightbody and indeed my husband, I find men who THINK they are stunning/the dogs bollocks awful. Men who rely on their looks forget how to build their personalities forget the art of conversation, forget that it's not all about them. I love a man to make me laugh, I love that moment when someone becomes so much more attractive when you start to see their personality shinning through, someone who can just as quickly laugh at themselves as laugh at others, I love a man who's passionate about things (sports do not count) who can cry, who can listen, who can step up when others take a step back. This is what I am lucky to get from my husband and as we are only weeks away from celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary I count myself lucky that I gave the shy, short, cute, sparkly eyed wee boy a chance 14 years ago on a blind date. Didn't mean for this blog to become a lovefest for Joe but you start blogging and that's obviously what's on my mind!

Catching up!

Well it's been a while since I last blogged as I've rediscovered my love of reading (thanks in part to my new kindle).

I love to lose myself in an imaginary world for hours/days and for some strange reason I had forgotten how gratifying reading is.
I think my iPad or just general love of gadgets has played a part in my memory slip, I seemed to spent hours on twitter, writing scathing comments on everything on television and replying to others equally scathing comments and realised how I actually find it easier to be cruel than to be kind.

It's not nice to notice how many nasty things I say, but in my defence I think I'm hilarious ( others might not be so amused with me ) so if you don't like it you know what to do.

Well it's a bank holiday weekend and I
Still here working making the people look beautiful as best I can, just remember when you go for you next appointment to get your hair done and bring in a picture of Angelina Jolie it's not going to happen as even extensive cosmetic surgery will only get you looking like Courtney Love so a haircut isn't going to touch the sides. Please be realistic about how you look and take onboard your stylists advice ( we really do know best)
If you have ever been into my salon you will know how down to earth we all are, there is no hard sell on products, if you like it you'll buy it next time. I can't bear pushy sales people in salons, you are meant to be able to make your hair look somewhat similar to how I've done it without having to spend a small country's defence budget on recreating it!