So today we handed over a great deal of money to a clinic in the hope that they will make us a baby!
For a lot of you out there getting pregnant is as simple as it sounds,
Boy meets girl
Boy and girl get it on
Baby is born 9 months later
Who knows if boy and girl are still together, or if they are if they will stay together, but they will always have a bond that will never be broken, a child!
To me a females 1 role in life apart from working, cooking, cleaning, shopping, running your husband's life ( i said running not ruining) is to have a baby, it's an inbuilt yearning that you can suppress for a while then it rears it ugly ticking biological clock like face to punch you in the stomach.
So we are nearly ready to get back onto the roller coaster of IVF for the 4th time with a lot less hope and even less money, to pump myself full of hormones, that make me want to pump my fist into any ones face, to give myself daily injections and many very early morning trips to the clinic to be poked and prodded by many Doctors and nurses (not in a nice way) to not even be guaranteed a positive outcome.
But I have HOPE because if I didn't what is the point of getting out of bed, of making plans, of just living!
Sometimes you have just got to go with the flow and if it doesn't work I'll pick myself up again put my lipstick on (no mascara might still cry) and get on with living my pretty fab life that we have built together.
So before we start we are off on a last big holiday to Orlando to indulge our inner child before we (hopefully) have to grow up and become parents!
